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[28 Oct 2005|11:59am] |
NEW USER NAME!!!!!
X_AIRWAVES ADDD MEEE!
AND THEN I'LL ADD YOU BACK!
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[26 Oct 2005|12:24pm] |
YOU'RE A SLEASE
but i miss you..sometimes..all the time..not sure
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[25 Oct 2005|09:59pm] |
right now i'm feeling alright
the last two days i've gotten little sleep
i keep having nightmares and such
last night i woke up at 3:12 a.m.
my cell phone was in my hand
and i know for sure that i hooked it up
to the charger before i went to sleep
weird. but right now i'm kinda ok
mr. big ,mr. big, mr. big
he always comes running back at the wrong times
you're a sand castle, built on a straw foundation
tomorrow after school
i'll venture into the city
to Berkeley College
i hope i get lost, i know i probably won't
but that'd be kind of interesting, kind of not
i can't wait to be by myself kinda.
i have to find my metro card.
p.s. Andrey said this to me today
" if i was him i'd be with you right now because you're amazing, he's an idiot"
fjalskghadlghdoi andrey=bff
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[24 Oct 2005|06:44pm] |
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i had a dream
that he didn't delte out picture of myspace
and that he left everything the same
only under our picture
he wrote a new caption
that said
" i'll never find anyone like you
and i would never want to"
i know that doesn't even fit in a myspace caption
but that was my dream
and then the alarm went off
and i woke up
INTO MY NIGHTMARE.
i cried waiting for the bus to school
and then saw shannon and cried some more
then i sucked it up all for school
even though i was dying on the inside
which i hate because it's really
not worth my time. at all
the only songs i've been listening to are:
give me novacaine-green day
extradionary girl- green day
perfect situation-weezer
and
the one i
really shound't listen to
"Non es amore"- frankie j
remeber how u were obsessed and played it all the time
and it was the ringtone of your sidekick , fag
and i hated it but secretly thought
you were the cutest thing i'd ever seen
and just the look in your eyes kept me warm
on the chilly summer nights
and i didn't need anything else but you
and the boardwalk
and the swings
and your sidekick going off every 5 seconds
didn't u feel the same?
....well...
didn't you..??
do u hear me?
i guess i'm really just fading away
out of your life
out of your mind
and worst of all
out of your heart
and i'll call people for help
but then hang up before they pick up
because they can't help
and the only call i want
is a call from you.
" in a p.e.r.f.e.c.t situation, you let love down the drain"
( and then i'll read old text messages between us )
what am i doing?
WHY AM I EVEN WRITING THIS?
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[23 Oct 2005|10:02pm] |
What more can i say then it's all over now
we'll fade away now
you've hurt me more then most
and it will be hard to get over you
but i could not stay
it was a sand castle built on a foundation of straw
you don't deserve me
and i didn't deserve to be treated like that
i won't be an INCONVEINCE anymore
me and samantha are gonna get married
hahahahaha.
p.s. thank you andrey
so so so so much
you are a great friend
GRREEEATTT
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[22 Oct 2005|02:04pm] |
things are good
for now.
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| cab driver "Uncle RAlph" |
[21 Oct 2005|10:31pm] |
HOLY FUCKEN CHRIST MY CAB DRIFER WAS FUCKEN FUNNY AS HELL
IT WAS LIKE THIS 60 YEAR OLD WHITE HICK REGGAE DANCING. GANGSTAH WTF FUCKEN DANCING
BUSTING OUT THE ROBOT AND SHIT (WHILE DRIVING)
ALLL HE SAID WAS FUCK AND WAS LIKE ITS GOOD TO KISS YOUR BOYFRIEND
AND SAID IM ONLY GOOD WHEN IM SLEEEPING
AHAHAHAHAHAHAH HOLY FUCKEN CHRIST I STARTED TO CRY IN THE CAR BECAUS EI WAS LAUGHING SO HARD
I ALMOST PEED...SERIOUSLY ALMOST
I WILL ALWAYS ASK FOR THIS GUY
HOYLS HIT
THEN HE HIT A BABY POSSIN
AND WAS LIKE FUCK
I RATHER HIT A HUMAN BEING
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
WHAT DID THAT POSSON DO TO ANYONE? NOTHINGGG
HAHAHAHA HES LIKE IT KILLED ME DANCING MOOD
HAHAHAHA
HE TOLD ME "YOU GO GIRL" FOR THE ACT TOMORROW
AND SAID I SHUD BE OUT TILL 5 IN THE MORNING APRTING
AHAHAHAH HOLY CHRIST
BEST CAB EVER!!!
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[19 Oct 2005|06:34pm] |
"maybe he's just not that into you"
how i feel.
i don't know what i'm doing anymore
such a fucken Mr. Big i swear to fucken god
HELP!
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[16 Oct 2005|12:46pm] |
OH YEA
before last night
when i still had a life
on friday
we went to A&W
and then i tired rollerblading
( i waste a lot of money )
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[16 Oct 2005|12:16pm] |
me and my dad were fighting
and then he grabbed my arm
and then i hit him cuz i didn't want his hands on me
and then i hit him again and he hit me back
and we got into a big pyshical fight
and now i'm grounded till god knows when
i hate family. a lot.
yesterday i was SUPPOSE to go to Dov's
and today i was going to hang out with him also
now i'll be home. i'm going to beast out on them i swear
i'm not talking to them as of now.
i cud be out doing so much every night
but i don't
and i'm a good stutdent
with a job
and i don't ask them for shit
i don't deserve this
they are horrible.
p.s. the ashlee simpson CD is greeatt.
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[13 Oct 2005|04:45pm] |
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SUPZ boredom.
i really love The All-American Rejects-Straightjacket feeling.
it's pretty, really pretty. the whole CD is pretty good
i'll have to buy it or something
i'm bored and have nothing else to do but update
i hate this weather alot.
sex and the city the full series
comes in one DVD set on november 1st
maybe i'll ask for it for x-mas.
who wants to come to the halloween parade in the city
on halloween. i've been told they throw condoms at you.
carianne.let's go on our killing spree.
the girls are getting out of control. for everyone
ok this is lame
PEACE OUTZZ
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[13 Oct 2005|02:00pm] |
and the stereo sings our song
we don't hesitate sing
we're miles from the middle of nowhere
neither of us seems to care
that's why i love you so-o-o
so shut your mouth, no one has to know
today:
raining
no drivers ed
because of jewish holiday
friday;
work
some friends and boyfriend action hopfully
saturday;
halloween costume
who wants to come to the mall with meee?
john leaves for Penn.
might hang with Dov.
me->chyLLEn at the HOLIDAY INN
and last night was
the first night
of many nights
that i smiled
just because
i was in
the same
room as
you.
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[10 Oct 2005|12:10pm] |
i
Hope
this
TERRIFIES
you
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[09 Oct 2005|03:17pm] |
last night went to dockstreet for an hour 1/2
left, i know lame, but it's ok cuz i had fun w/ what i did
then i took a cab
to meet john
and jess and andrey
and tried to convience them to go back to docks
but no hah
but i had fun anyways
we shud in the ran for the bus
and then finally got home
and i ran in the puddles
and borrowed "horror" movies from fred
and sex and the city because Andrey is obsessed like me
and got really excited when i told him i finally got the 2nd season
and watched them
and just hung until 5 a.m.
then they left
and i was sad
Andrey is my favorite Russian
( Andrey my mom made pancakes this morning and i saved some for you )
love.
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[07 Oct 2005|10:34am] |
and if you could see me now
im almost finally out of words.
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